by Ildie
(New Jersey)
I had 3 children in my early 20s. i never thought I have more but after divorcing from my first husband I got married again and 2 years ago surprise-suprise I found out I`m pregnant...
Mixed fillings because of my age (was 45) but also happy and planning to change our life prepare for the baby... the 9th week I miscarried.
I was devastated depressed didn`t want to see kids babies...blamed myself and tried to found the reason why I couldn`t carry in a full term pregnancy even I had 3 kids...
My husband still thought we could have a child even if we are not as young anymore,but still we have energy to raise a baby...
So in this April right after my birthday I found out I`m pregnant again. Calculated and it would`ve been borned on Christmas so we called the miracle child :). I felt never better in my life, had so much energy woke up at 4am went to bed 10pm and between I was going and didn`t need rest... Blood pressure was little low around 100/60 but I felt good no tiredness no sleepiness... I had some bleeding on my 5th week during sex but dr said that is ok because the cervix has more blood vessels during pregnancy. We were so happy and waiting for our miracle child growing but at the 7th week I lost her...
It was 4 weeks ago... since than I haven`t had my period yet, found this website and reading so many similar said stories feel for everyone who lost their babies...Helping me get through my depression.
I was on birth control pill for about 15 years. Can it cause the reason for loosing pregnancies? Should I start progesterone or just let it go? I know I have a small fibroid on my left side of the uterus could it cause the miscarriage?
I think we should just give up and adopt a child....
Thank you to letting me share.
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